01-29-14

My echo is the only voice coming back, my shadow is the only friend that I have. No one is there for me when I really need them. I’m good at hiding my feelings. I’m good at pretending I guess. Pretending to be happy, pretending to be someone that I’m not. I try to change the way I am so maybe people will start to like me, but that obviously isn’t working. So there’s this guy I met at SSJ, he’s really nice to me and he told me he likes me, but honestly, I don’t know what to believe anymore. I think he’s really cute and extremely funny, he even comes to pick me up from my classes, he’s really nice. And he’s my age, but I’m older because my birthday is in April and his is in November. His name is Jimmy. I feel like if I really get to know him, he’d be the kind of person I know I could trust. He’s just one big sweet heart and he’s somewhat shy around me, but I could tell that he tries to hide his shyness, it’s really adorable! Well yea, that’s it for now and that’s what has been going on with me. Hopefully Jimmy is a good guy like all my friends say he is. I don’t even know who my friends are anymore. I feel alone, broken, hurt, and like I’m suffering from all this…