“Describing what it’s like to cut.”

Well, just go to the beach and walk into the water.  Blind folded. You just keep walking. You don’t know where you’re going. You just know you’re going deeper. That’s what the build up to cutting feels like. Depression has blinded you. All you know is you’re going deeper. Now just keep going until you drown. You want relief, you wan air, you don’t want to be drowning anymore. Now imagine the relief when someone pulls you out of the water. That’s what cutting is. Relief. Relief from all the pain you’ve been drowning in. Relief from not feeling good enough. Relief from the bullies at school. Relief from feeling fat. Relief from your imperfections and insecurities. You might think cutting is disgusting and might never understand it, but when you’re drowning, you need saving. You need relief. So what is cutting like? It’s relief.